Wednesday, January 31, 2007
well .. this post is make .. cause well... soft of inspire by my counterpart class friends ....
and .. nooo~~ i not going to blog on my class or whatever.. treat it like a aftermath of my school life from pri sch --> sec sch--> ITE--> poly and well that should be the end of my schooling life ...
PRIMARY SCHOOL
little to not much memory there .. well ... i dont kw how to describe it ... it felt so ... you kw ... "DISTANCE" ... i onli vaguly rem trip to the dentist in sch .. how the sch looks like even after not visiting it for .. like ....10 ++ yrs ..my form teacher for 4 yrs ... i really have no friends in pri sch days ... i mean i have ..well at that time .... none left now ...
Secondary School
Taken away cause im being SUE by a friend (.. ya rite..) kenny .. looking at u
Secondary School (SuB )
Why sub .. eh .. well .. cause i live a 2 life in this period .. in school i was diff from outside school...
Here is where my dreams come and falls into place . Where my real friends .. my brothers i make came ...my dreams as a pro bassist ... and where the infamous quote
if by 20th of age i am not famous than i will stop
is make haha ..
in simple to say ... i dont put much time into secondary school life ... i kw it is where i believe most people find it the most fun time ...but... i just dont really like it .. i mean its the time where people think they have grow up ... start to have a " please leh dont be childish grow up lah " saying hanging onto their mouth. To me its a time where if you really wanna relize your dreams .. you wanna test out yourselves this is the time ... cause its still the time where you still can .. . well ... "DREAM" and not saying poeple are childish and stupid .. cause you are well .. 15-19 ? how mature can you get ??? i think the only time when you get start to act bossy is after 23 ba...why ? cause tats when men finish their NS and gals no longer feel they are young anymore.
in overall i have left wif only 1 contact friends (make in sch) and 10+ brothers and sisters (make outside) well you can see ... i hate my secondary school life .....but i love this period
But atleast ... i have done what i want ...try what i want.. and took a shot at my dream and did not regret how i live my secondary school days
ITE
If i really have to find a single time in schooling life which i find "HAPPENING" (ITE Motto "making things happen"?) should be here ba ... atleast well ... i dont kw ... its just .. "fun" maybe its the people who have a simple thinking of passing ITE ... have fun ... helping each other... working as a gp... no discrimination ( of who is clever who is good) no competition of work .... it was easy life ... altho not easy study ... but you can feel as little as ZERO stress there ... its a good study enviroment ... cause simple to say ... THERE ARE people who are willing to help wif ZERO repayment.. it was the period where i discover .. My interest in IT
and i just love to ... help ...when my help is needed i step in help and step out and let others enjoy their effort ... its not that i arrogant or something ... simple to say it .... i just love to see the happiness in their face .. well i do love how the work is spin around me ... i love to find somthing to spin and i l try to keep it spinning to its fullest not letting it stop than step out and stand in a distance to see how beautiful it spin ...
POLY
i cant find a suitable word to describe it .... i choose to continue study cause
1- to have a dipolma cert
2- make my parents happy
3- ITE end in a hash way ... i just need to find back schooling life once more .. relive it and satstify myself
It was competetive(study) ... its was hectic(sch life) ... and ... it was warming(Ms) ...
If you ask me for a reason why i didnt regret chooosing poly life
i will ans:
I found my love there
okok i will stop my mushy here.... i think is cause i still have the urge to help people spin their things ard ba ... i wanna to relive my love for watching how people work... i mean you cant do that when you get to the working world out there rite?
overall i think i outdone myself in the matter of spinning things ... something .. i think i spin too much .. sometime i think i spin it in a wrong direction.. i dont kw ...i just lost touch ( suddenly at a certain yr ) after that fateful yr ... i just stop helping people to spin ... and let people spin their own things ... at the last sem ... i find myself to having the urge to help(help as in help .. not force thinking) people spin things again ... and found myself .. well not losing touch ... firstly im happy ... satistify and make some people happy ...altho i hope they dont think i spin it too hard and too fast ... i just wanna outdo myself 1 last time .... i just wanna see happy face ard me ... 1 last time ...to step in to people life and step out and watch the spinning from a far 1 last time.... tats why i chose, stand by and feel a sense of belonging in my FYP gp/gps .... and sincerly i hope they are happy wif my spinning ....
In poly life .. really i found alot of happiness there( which last a very short term) .... i found alot of sadness there ...i found alot of anger there...i found alot of regret there .... i make alot of hard and tough decision there....in overall i still dont like it ... i really like to see happy smile on people face ...it happen once when poly started ... but it suddenly ....disappear.... i endure all the way till the last sem and see it relive again .... i wonder why
Conculsion
In overall ... as you can see ... i dont like my school days but ...but those are what make me am today ... Im not proud of these memory ...but i am proud of being myself. i just like to stand on the outside watch people walk pass me ...i only hope ... if you see me outside 1 day ... walking on the street ... i dont need a passing by talk of some boring stuff if you dont wanna talk to me ... give me a simple "HI" smile and be carry on wif your day ... i will be happy
In life i dont hope and wish to be like a someone who desperately holding on to everyone they kw and focing them to think likewise i do ... i will
- walk into your life
- see if you like me ?
- if you do not i will just walk out and say bye
- if you do i will continue to walk wif you
if there is a choice ... to live by everything again .... i will chose .. "NO".. yes there is alot of regret decision i make ... but i still live by every decision i make and standby it ....cause that is a prove to tell myself "HEY LOOK IM ALIVE"
i believe
To stay in one life and be remember is easy but to stand afar not siding anywhere just being a passerby is not
atleast i have not succeed in staying afar and making clear decision
In time, when you are not found
In time,when you are not fear
losing to the fate of drying wish
a wish of true life crisp
Time is not a truth
Time is not a crude
What do you wish for
What do you die for
life hanging monotone
hanging monotone
hanging meaningless
For a drying wish
Death is not a wish
Death is but a trutH
Holding on to where we stand
Fighting is all i got for the time i can withstand
a sword like light blinding my Fear
Holding on to somewhere i stand
Leading me on to my endless Fights
-----"BLIND" by punckies 1997----------------
Lyrics --> Ken,Jimmy
Compose --> Jimmy
YoB A tSuJ
